nesteaplunge

     Remember the "Nestea Plunge"?  Some hot, thirsty person drinks iced tea mixed from a powder and it is so refreshing that they fall into a pool.  I thought of that because someone asked me to see photos of Isaiah.  I don't have them up.  What if everyone follows along and things fall through because THERE ARE NO GUARANTEES?
     Oops.  There is that pride again.
     It is hot.  I am thirsty.  I am swilling my tea through clenched teeth and white-knuckling the ladder so I don't go in.  Everyone else is in the pool; enjoying a refreshing drink.
     Wow.  It is so like me to hold back the joy in anticipation of the disappointment that hasn't come yet.  It is "the way I am".
     I am so thirsty.  I have worked so hard.  This is the funnest most profound thing anyone can do.  It is the very definition of delight.  I have been so busy armoring my heart that I am missing out on the pleasure of anticipation.  So are Mickey and the girls and they have the added difficulty of dealing with a hot, tired, thirsty, sweaty person who stands there with a glass of tea and a pool and WON"T TAKE THE PLUNGE!!!!!!!!
     I will climb back out and complain about the heat.  Push me back in.  For right now, I am going in.

His name is An Xin Kang.  He is five and brilliant.  His English name is Isaiah.  He is mine.